I don`t know if you heard but the Other Day, Robert Culp (I Spy, American Hero, etc) Died -I had the honor of knowing him -I was a fan of his b4 I met him over 8yrs ago -he was a regular frequent guest of The Playboy Mansion & a really good friend of Hef`s. He was a really kind, charming, sweet man. He would drink his Oduls (non-alcoholic beer) and talk about his animal rights activity -I regret not talking to him more. Just like Don Adams of Get Smart -Don would always comment on how much food I could eat -he thought it was disgusting -he was funny & witty -LOL! I feel so blessed on knowing the people I know -I love them all -they have such interesting & rich histories. I really need to ask more questions & Talk to them more. I can learn alot from their experiences.
I put my foot in my mouth alot though. Once I watched a movie Called 'Cat Ballou' with Rachel Welch -I made the mistake of gushing about how much I moved this B-Movie - well - I did not know it at the time that I was talking to Elliot, who Directed the Film and he quipped back at me that it WAS NOT A B-movie -oops....I was soooo ashamed -I really didn`t mean any dis-respect -I just always thought that Rachel Welch ONLY made B-movies -it wasn`t a put down of the movie. That made me learn to be more careful on what I say & to be more aware on who I am talking to. You can imagine that OJ, Robert Blake, Michael Jackson etc... maybe a poor subject matter as well @ The Playboy Mansion. Egg Shells indeed.
However with these past deaths-this is a reminder that I really need to show my appreciation more to the people in my life!
I just never want to 'bug' anyone or be like a Fan or stalker -but I am very interested in their stories. Some of the people that go to the mansion -I have no idea what they do for a living. I am so bad at recognizing people and there is a lot more people that work behind the scenes to where their looks or names would never be recognized. For the past 9 years I have just been on the surface of things . I am terrible at remembering names -I even forget names of the guests & Playboy Employees that I a very close to. I feel embarrassed to ask knowing that it might offend them since we are so close and for so many years. I need to get over that and just come clean.
I need to be a better friend. I need to pay more attention. I am tired of being just an 'extra' in life. Time to get involved, ask questions, learn, live, love, etc, More. I do not want to regret anything. I am tired of letting being shy, self-conscious, or even a having a poor memory as an excuse. I need to stop taking my blessings for granted!
For all the people that are in my life reading this - I may not show it at times - I may seem aloof -I may act like a brat -I maybe Quiet -I may say or do stupid things- I may even forget your name -which is Bad - but no matter what - I want you to know that I do appreciate you, I love you and I am soooo soooo Very Happy to know you & have you in my life!!
oxox Stacy
March 28th 2010: I just got back from the Playboy Mansion -Johnny Crawford came up & told me -that it was NOT Rachel Welch but it was Jane Fonda in the movie Cat Ballou!! OMG -I slithered fro the mansion pronto -to much egg on my face to stay -I apprecite Johnny telling me -OMG - I can`t believe That!!!!
Very sweet and humble post.
ReplyDeleteI think it's natural to forget names and stumble sometimes when you are surrounded by so many people with rich and in depth histories.